It doesn't matter if this blog has a title or not.

It's been 3 days since I left hostel with too many sweet things. But I think now, I don't have to be worried of people being bored or anything because they can take it and they have the freedom to do anything they want. They can go here and there without thinking of me being sick or any.

Well, It's okay. I'm not being emo anyway. I just feel that I just have to go on living alone without any friends around me. I hate it but I have to face it. I just miss them a lot and I don't mind if they don't miss me at all because I believe that certain people just don't miss a single person when they're with their friends. I just don't have that type of attitude, I rather miss someone than forgetting someone.

I hope that since I am not there right now. I hope you guys have fun joking around with clean-dirty jokes, looking all around for a person to make them as your eye candy and stuff. I know I will be okay but I just want you guys to know that I miss you all.

Rants for today.

Hello again!

I think I'm going to say that, I feel like I hate myself. I'm getting fat and sicker. I don't mind getting sick, but getting fat is a different thing. I don't know but I feel like people are running away from me. Haha.. What a joke. Nevermind, Forget about it. I don't know how to lose my weight right now. I don't have basketball shoes to play basketball anymore like I always do. Playing and practicing basketball is the only way I love to work out because it involves the whole body and I don't have to carry any dumbbell or run on 'I don't know what you call it' machine. I miss shooting some three’s, rebounding, jumping high like hell. Plus, make a single dunk once a day. Yes, I really jump that high when I was totally active in basketball. Thanks to myself, and my parents for sending me to Muadzam Shah, I can't play basketball that often. To make things worse, Thanks to myself for eating a lot while I’m in college without playing basketball even for a day, I am now 70kg.

Now I'm just a 'Fat-Bastard' who eats a lot and finally realize that he needs to control his diet. I'm looking forward to start everything again when holidays starts. Hope I will get my old body back or even better than that.

Anyways,

Sorry for not updating my blog. I’ve been pretty busy with my studies and I don’t have time to focus on spilling my feelings here. So today, I will try to spill some of my feelings.
Holidays coming and people are leaving for a while soon. I might not be staying in my hostel again for certain reason which I think it’s not important for me to jot it down here.
You see, I used to live alone during the holidays and I don’t even care about it because I know my friends are around during this time. But now, they wont be around during my holiday season because they are in a different College which they have their holidays in a different time. I’m just a living zombie now when holiday comes. My colleagues are staying quite far from my place and it’s very hard for me to meet them always or should I say ‘NEVER’ get to meet them at all?
I think the worse part of me with facing the holidays is my birthday. I am bored celebrating with my parents always and I want to try celebrating it with my friends. It’s nice to see people get the chance to celebrate their birthday with their friends during school days and at the same time; it’s sad. People who celebrate their birthday during school times are lucky enough because they have their friends around during that day.

Sucks being me right?

Therefore, I hope that this years holiday season would be different for me since I have PS3 right now to be my friend when there’s no one to talk to. And of course, I wish I will have my friends around during my birthday. It’s not because I want presents from them but, I just want to share my ‘I don’t know what to say’ feelings with them.
I guess that’s all for my rants right now.

P.S; My birthday is on the 30th of December.